Monday 19 October 2020

Putting your foot down


‘Oh hi, Ellis. What can I do for you?’

‘Dad isn’t home yet, right?’

‘No, he’s still at work.’



‘Good. Because I really need to talk to you properly. Can we go somewhere quiet, away from the kids?’

‘Sure… They’re playing upstairs. We can go in the kitchen.’



‘You must promise you won’t repeat this to Dad. Okay?’

‘Is it that bad?’

‘Yes, it is.’



‘I don’t know if I should make promises like that. I want to be honest with him…’

‘What, as honest as he is with you? I’m sorry, I really want to handle this with sensitivity, but you can’t deny that he’s deceived you.’

‘I’m well aware of that. I’d just rather be better than that.’



‘He has lied to you from the day he met you. You came to our house pregnant, clearly with no idea we existed! Sorry, but you know that’s true. You were just as shocked to see us as we were you. And I don’t hold it against you at all, but I do hold it against him.’

‘That was eight years ago, Ellis. I’ve moved on. I’m committed to being a wife and a mother. I can’t hold grudges.’

‘From that stunt he pulled with the triplets, it’s still happening. Roxxi, the most generous way I can describe him is as a sexist piece of trash.’



‘What’s your point? You want to get me to leave, like Aria did? I didn’t then, and I won’t now. I can’t, alright?’



‘What Aria told you isn’t a lie. Nor did she misinterpret anything. Because I was there too, and I heard everything. I’m backing up what she said 100%.’



‘…What?’

‘Aria was telling you the truth. I can’t do any more than agree with her, and I should have done that months ago. I’m doing it now because I can’t live with myself, and because you deserve better than this.’

‘You’re saying he…’



‘…Killed my mum? Yeah.’

‘No, I can’t… That can’t be right…’

‘Like I said, don’t repeat any of this to him. It’s not safe. If you choose to leave, our door is open at any time. If you choose to stay… well, it still is. We’ll always support you.’



‘…I’m sorry, I…’

‘I’m not asking you to make a decision right now. I just had to do the right thing. Protecting everyone is hard… It’s a bit of a balancing act. God knows I don’t want to set him off again. But I’ve been cowardly here.’

‘You’re not… Oh God, you’re not.’



‘Do you believe me?’

‘I don’t know… but look, presuming this is true… Aren’t I in the same danger, if I make that choice? That just cements that I can’t leave.’

‘No, because we’d help! We’d find a way out for you!’



‘You think I can manage as a single parent of triplets? I can’t take any money from you, and if I went, there’s no way my parents would be on my side. I’d never afford it, for one thing… I’ve got no skills, no future, nowhere would hire me. I’m not capable of it. No court in the world would side with me.’

‘Who cares about doing things legally? That’s out of the question. I'm talking about running away.’

‘You know that couldn't work… And speaking of legally, how did the police not notice anything wrong? With your mother…? Is the mind control stuff really true?’



‘Yeah, it is. It’s not like any of us wanted to cover it up, but… Dad made it clear that we couldn’t tell the truth. Fuck, we were just kids. Even me. I wasn’t even eighteen… I didn’t know what to do. So I did nothing, and now that’s a bridge I can’t cross, legally. So yeah, I was a coward.’

‘Ellis, sweetie, I’m not even half as brave as you are. I always thought you’d managed really well. You were so kind to your sisters, and the way you looked after Charon, too… At least you went and got a real job. I made all the wrong choices… I’m saying, I’m not half as mature or responsible as you are. So I don’t think I can manage on my own.’

‘I think you could do a lot more than you’re giving yourself credit for.’



‘There’s no good solution to this. Any way I go will end badly. Either I try to leave and get killed, or I divorce him and lose, or I go on the run as some kind of outlaw.’

‘Why don’t you take some time to consider your options? I mean… how does he treat the kids?’

‘He’s still kind with them… Ellis, I swear, I might be useless, but if I thought he was mistreating them, I really would go, okay? I can put up with anything he might do to me, but them…’

‘Does that include emotional abuse? Because he wasn't violent to any of us. It's everything else that was the problem.’

‘Of course it does…’



‘I guess they do still seem enamoured with him. So he doesn't belittle them, get angry...?’

‘No, I've never seen that happen. He's never been angry with them. Obviously I'm not around 100% of the time, but they all seem to trust him fine. And he doesn't have them on his own that often anyway.’

‘Right… You come to us if you suspect anything, okay?’



‘Yeah, I will. I’ll stay on alert. I know this isn’t the answer you want, but…’

‘It’s fine. I know what’s at stake. Believe me… I really get it.’

‘Thank you, sweetheart. You’re such a lovely person.’



‘You are, too. Too good for this. But then we all were, huh?’

‘Yeah… I think so.’



‘Ellis? What are you doing here?’



‘Oh, Dad… I, um, actually came to talk to you…’

‘Okay? What is it?’



‘…I know you’re racist, and I can’t change that. I don’t intend to expose Charon to it. So… don’t instil anything like that in the triplets. Keep your stupid opinions to yourself. They already know bigotry is bullshit, so don’t go indoctrinating them or turning them against their own nephew.’



‘I beg your pardon? Who are you tell me what I can and can’t say-’



‘Oh, don’t worry, Ellis. I’ll make sure it doesn’t happen. I don’t like bigotry, either.’

‘Thanks. That’s all I needed to hear. I’d better get going, then…’

‘See you later.’





‘….Do you mind telling me what all that was about?’



‘I think your prejudice against aliens is wrong, and I don’t want the kids picking up on it.’

‘Prejudice? Well, I’m very sorry for disliking the fact that they implant foetuses in men without their consent.’

‘Has Charon done that to anyone?’



‘Well no, but give it time. And just what the hell were you doing hugging him?’



‘Ellis and I are on good terms. I don’t see anything wrong with a hug. And don’t change the subject… Sorry, but I won’t back down on this. I’m your wife. We’re a partnership. You know I’m dedicated to you, so please give my decisions some weight. The kids will make up their own minds without you needing to convince them one way or the other.’



‘Roxxi… I feel like I’m losing you. What can I do? I hate arguing with you.’

‘Treat me with more respect, please. Treat everyone with more respect. I’ll definitely be more attracted to you if you do.’

‘…Okay. I won’t say any more anti-alien things in front of the triplets.’

‘Thank you.’



‘You really do mean a lot to me, you know. Because you’re right, we are a partnership. I suppose you have to compromise sometimes in a marriage.’

‘Yeah… Thanks.’

‘Do you think we could spend the rest of the evening together, once the kids have gone to bed? Get an early night, perhaps?’

‘Sure.’

Underage drinking

 


‘Dad, can I ask you a question?’

‘Of course. What’s up?’

‘Does Grandad hate me?’



‘…Why, love? What’s happened?’

‘Tristan said I can’t go to his house because Grandad said it’s an alien free zone.’

‘Oh…’



‘And Tristan thought it might be too dangerous for me to go, but I don’t get why…’

‘…Charon… between you and me, it doesn’t matter what Grandad thinks, okay?’

‘Is it bad to be an alien?’



‘No! It’s not bad at all! There’s nothing wrong with you. You’re perfect the way you are, alright? Please don’t think it’s bad to be an alien.’

‘But sometimes other people look at me funny too.’

‘It’s because they’re not used to you… Aliens are very rare. It just takes them by surprise.’



‘Why am I the only alien here? Why aren’t I a human like you?’

‘Well… like I told you, the aliens gave you to me. They made you and put you in my tummy to grow. And you know the rest…’

‘…How did they make me? How do they make babies?’



‘……….That’s a question for another day, I think. I’ll explain that one to you another time.’

‘Oh, okay.’

‘But listen… Don’t go telling the triplets, but Grandad doesn’t really like me either. It’s his problem, not ours. Anyone who matters… accepts you for who you are. You don’t have to change to please anyone else. And some things, you can’t change. Like being an alien.’

‘Alright.’

‘Tell me if anyone else says anything rude to you, okay? I won’t let you be picked on.’



‘I will.’

‘Good…’




‘So you’re absolutely sure this place will serve us?’

‘Oh yeah. I’ve been here before with my mum. They don’t give a shit.’



‘Your mum took you out for underage drinking?’



‘…What can I say, she’s not the most responsible person in the world.’



‘It’ll be fine. We’ve done this before. Unless you’re really not up for it. We don’t have to go.’



‘Oh, it’s fine. Gotta live a little now and then.’



‘No, I’m not opposed or anything… though I really hope we don’t get caught.’



‘Relax. We’ll be okay. If they really cared, they’d have done something long ago. Anyway, it’ll be dead at this time. It’s too early for the drunks.’

‘Are you here a lot?’

‘Nah, not that often. Don’t have the money, for one…’








‘Raya? What’re you doing here?’



‘Oh, shit… I, um, didn’t think you liked it here.’

‘I don’t. It’s just cheap. What’s your excuse?’

‘Um…’



‘…Taking advantage of the Old Horse’s very loose policies?’



‘That was the idea, yeah… Sorry! We didn’t mean to lead your sister astray…’

‘Nah, I’m sure Raya has plenty of her own agency… Right?’

‘It was our idea, though…’



‘No, it’s fine, Heath. She’s right, I did make a choice. Um, please don’t tell Edward…’



‘Hey, I’m not gonna grass you up. What do you think I am?’

‘But I shouldn’t be here.’

‘Well, I’m here, so how much trouble can you get into?’



‘You get into trouble on your own, though…’

‘…I guess, but that’s beside the point. Anyway, you can stay. You can have one drink, but after that, switch to soft drinks, okay?’

‘I will. Thanks!’

‘The rest of you do what you want. I’m not your mums.’



‘Thanks for being cool about it!’



‘It’s fine. I’ve no idea where she’d get the idea I’d shop her. I wouldn’t do that. If it were one of our seven-year-old siblings, then that’d be a different story…’



‘They start younger and younger these days, huh?’

‘Not that young, I hope.’




‘Well, that could’ve gone a lot worse. Your sister seems nice.’

‘She is. She looks out for me. She can be a bit intense, but… it’s all good.’

‘So, who’s Edward anyway?’

‘Oh, he’s our uncle… He definitely wouldn’t approve of me drinking.’

‘Why him, and not your dad?’

‘…This has to be a secret, okay?’



‘Sure.’

‘Yeah, I won’t tell.’



‘I don’t live with my dad. I live with my older siblings and my uncle.’



‘Oh. Why?’

‘It’s better for everyone… we don’t exactly get along.’

‘What about your mum?’



‘She’s dead.’

‘Shit. Sorry to hear that.’

‘It’s fine…’



‘Sorry, we fucked up, didn’t we? First we nearly get you into trouble, not we’ve gone and brought up a touchy subject. Let’s talk about something else.’



‘…I’m just making it awkward by being here, aren’t I? You guys have been really nice to me, but I’m just dragging the mood down. I should probably go.’



‘Hey, no! Don’t go. I know I’ve had fun. First swimming, then coming out for drinks. It’s been a nice day.’

‘But I’m just not as cool as any of you.’

‘What, for real?’



‘You think I’m cool? Wow, that’d be a first!’



‘Yeah, what he said. And I don’t just mean him, either. You know we’re not that great, right? People just tend to think of us as the “emo kids”, which isn’t even accurate, but if you’re slightly alternative you’ll get labelled that way. What I mean is, we’re hardly all that.’



‘Exactly. If we were in some kind of teen movie, we’d definitely be considered the nerdy losers!’



‘Besides, this is like the most daring thing we’ll ever do. It’s not like we take drugs or anything — can’t stand the stuff, personally.’



‘I just feel like I bring down the mood. Especially when my shitty home life comes up. I think it’s pretty easy to work out from what I’ve said that it’s a big mess.’

‘Hey… you’re not the only one with a shitty home life. You live with your uncle and your mum’s no longer around, well, I don’t even know who my real dad is. And my mum and stepdad aren’t exactly great either. Some of us just put on a brave face over it by making crap jokes. So… Sometimes it’s just false confidence.’



‘Yeah, my dad fucked off years ago. I’m not gonna use my mum as an example of a bad home life ‘cos there’s nothing wrong with her, but families come in all shapes and sizes, right?’



‘Well, I’ve been seeing a therapist, and it kinda became clear that all my… home situation stuff… left me without much confidence. Not like getting burned in a fire helped at all.’



‘But how many people can say they’ve survived a fire? I think that’s pretty badass, to be honest.’

‘You do…?’

‘Hell yeah! You’re a lot cooler than you think.’



‘Anyway, if you were that boring, do you think I’d waste my time hanging out with you? Free time’s precious, y’know? We would’ve already ditched your ass.’



‘That makes sense… thanks, guys.’